Malik looks around again, like he's considering moving them, but... hell he's never cared about keeping secrets before, what does he care if anyone overhears. This is a Sin not a Secret he's confessing here. ]
...I spoke to Yugi, about why I hate you so much. Hated. There are... some other factors, but the biggest reason was apparently that I'd convinced myself you were responsible for killing my father.
[ Look. He's trying to admit that maybe it is not SUPER reasonable to hate the Pharaoh at quite this intensity when it is not DIRECTLY his fault. He's trying it out. ]
...I think...The most you could be responsible for is that you existed at all. Taking the longest view possible, my father's death was caused by the role our family played in guarding your secrets.
Accord to Yugi - and according to my sister - it was my other self who killed our father. And he may not be me, but I'm still responsible for the things he does. Believing it was you was my way of protecting myself.
[ shakes his head. He still doesn't want, like, the Pharaoh's sympathy that's Too Much ]
He did say he was the rightful owner of the millenium items, and therefore would be Pharaoh. Maybe that's another reason why I had it in my head that the Pharaoh was responsible. Who knows.
...I still don't know why he killed father. I could rebuy the memories to know, but since he seems interested in killing me as well, and him losing his own game, and memories, is what let me have control again... well, I haven't been in a hurry to do that.
[ makes... a very bemused face, at some of these skills ]
Some of these make being a vampire seem, um. Undignified. But...If you trust me with it, I would...hold you... as a bat. I've done so with a few other animal forms, and that was -- [ nice ] -- fine.
[ he stares at it, making eye contact with its beady little eyes, honestly appalled at how hecking cute it is
after a second he veeeeeery carefully tips his hands so the bat is cupped in one palm, freeing up his other hand so he can lift one finger towards the bat
and pauses, lips pursed, like he cannot believe what he's about to do
[ ....how can this be happening to him, what has he done to deserve this life, a life where THE PHARAOH is adorable and small and where petting his tiny head is soothing.
truly, they are in hell.
...also the pettings will continue, slow and measured, Malik being very careful to stroke between the bat's ears without disturbing them. Gentle. ]
...I spoke to another boy on pep pep as an animal, earlier. He wouldn't tell me if he was naturally attention-seeking or if the transformation was having an effect, but. I...assume you're not normally this-- ...way.
[ it feels so soothing to pet. Physically the soft, smooth texture of the bat's fur is nice, but it's also... emotionally? nice? The repeated petting motion is calming, and the immediate positive feedback, the way he can tell he's Doing It Right...
this is why people like animals isn't it. ]
...Truthfully... you are nothing like I'd spent so long imagining. In many ways.
[ he's clearly pretty capable of holding a one-sided conversation here ]
[ the petting will definitely continue. The soothing-ness of it aside, it also gives him something to focus on besides just... holding the Pharaoh in his hand. Whether he's interpreted that head tilt as a prompt, or if he was going to continue talking either way is... unclear ]
...I hadn't realized just how young you would be. Of course, I knew, but knowing it and actually meeting you...it's different. And we haven't spoken much, but even so you're just so much more-- normal than I'd expected.
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puzzlekeeper) wrote2019-10-11 02:57 pm
Re: MONSTER GAME - day 162
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What is happening. ]
Hi?
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Are you free to-- talk? I have something to say to you, that I think will count for this game.
...if return, I'll help you with one of yours, if you want.
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How much will he regret this "talk"? Knowing ygo villains, probably a lot.
But also, if they do it right now, at least he can explode into bats to nope out of the conversation, if needed. ]
Fine. If you want.
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Malik looks around again, like he's considering moving them, but... hell he's never cared about keeping secrets before, what does he care if anyone overhears. This is a Sin not a Secret he's confessing here. ]
...I spoke to Yugi, about why I hate you so much. Hated. There are... some other factors, but the biggest reason was apparently that I'd convinced myself you were responsible for killing my father.
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Well, I can't confirm or deny anything, because I don't have any memories related to this.
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...I think...The most you could be responsible for is that you existed at all. Taking the longest view possible, my father's death was caused by the role our family played in guarding your secrets.
Accord to Yugi - and according to my sister - it was my other self who killed our father. And he may not be me, but I'm still responsible for the things he does. Believing it was you was my way of protecting myself.
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What the fuck. ]
... I see. From my admittedly brief interaction with him - that doesn't sound too out of character.
But I'm sorry about your father.
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He did say he was the rightful owner of the millenium items, and therefore would be Pharaoh. Maybe that's another reason why I had it in my head that the Pharaoh was responsible. Who knows.
...I still don't know why he killed father. I could rebuy the memories to know, but since he seems interested in killing me as well, and him losing his own game, and memories, is what let me have control again... well, I haven't been in a hurry to do that.
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I don't-- remember much about my father either. I think that must have been most of what he lost in the game.
--Anyway, that was what I wanted to say to you. And the "sin" I've confessed for this game. If there's anything you'd have me do in return...
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[ He flashes his bingo card. ]
Pick one you're comfortable with, and then we can count ourselves even. In general.
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Some of these make being a vampire seem, um. Undignified. But...If you trust me with it, I would...hold you... as a bat. I've done so with a few other animal forms, and that was -- [ nice ] -- fine.
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Well, it's better than a lot of the other choices, so... ]
I wouldn't necessarily say that I trust you, but I do trust my ability to defend myself, so... it's fine.
[ And without much further ado, he
POOFS into nothing. ]
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There's a cute little flat fluttering around just above Malik's head. ]
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it's cute
he tries to not let it show on his face, how cute that is, and instead holds out his cupped hands ]
I had no idea vampire bats were so small.
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But as promised, he lights in Malik's hands and settles there with a small trill. ]
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after a second he veeeeeery carefully tips his hands so the bat is cupped in one palm, freeing up his other hand so he can lift one finger towards the bat
and pauses, lips pursed, like he cannot believe what he's about to do
then very, veeeeery carefully
sets his fingertip on the bat's head
and gives it
a single
pet ]
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Look at what your life has led to, Malik. ]
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truly, they are in hell.
...also the pettings will continue, slow and measured, Malik being very careful to stroke between the bat's ears without disturbing them. Gentle. ]
...I spoke to another boy on pep pep as an animal, earlier. He wouldn't tell me if he was naturally attention-seeking or if the transformation was having an effect, but. I...assume you're not normally this-- ...way.
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The bat just trills and continue enjoying the pettings, ears twitching back and forth. He'll just have to use his own judgement to decide. ]
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this is why people like animals isn't it. ]
...Truthfully... you are nothing like I'd spent so long imagining. In many ways.
[ he's clearly pretty capable of holding a one-sided conversation here ]
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Continue both things, that is, because the petting should absolutely continue at all costs. ]
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...I hadn't realized just how young you would be. Of course, I knew, but knowing it and actually meeting you...it's different. And we haven't spoken much, but even so you're just so much more-- normal than I'd expected.
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Still, it seems to sound earnest enough. And this one-sided conversation is more productive so far than a normal one would be, probably.
So he just folds his wings up a bit and continues to listen. ]
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letting himself being at all vulnerable is terrifying ]
It's hard to let go of being angry. Being angry kept me alive. I don't know what to do, but...
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